Wtf is this shitty feeling. It came from my bringing up, super awkwardly and I’ll fatedly about how I didn’t want Aop to feel like I was trying to get more money out of them by regenogistng. B got the impression that I saw trying to hide money from M, which I wasn’t at all. I was awkward about it and stuttered a lot. I feel so shitty about it and just a burning anxiety. God damn I hate this feeling. I feel like a child who is just bungling things. I feel like I get where I need to be, then bungle that one thing which fucks me. I don’t think this will be an issue here. I just hate that I couldn’t clarity myself, that I wasn’t trying to screw over my manager. Hopefully my clumsiness in speech will make it seem like I am asking the question rather than trying to be subversive. That I am lacking knowledge and asking rather than manipulating.