life

She is Not Perfect

She is Not Perfect

It’s a real shame, the important key
Physicality wrong outside of me
I want it to be more, more emotional
More connected, it’s not optional

Devastating it is, deeply saddening
The why question is just maddening
I love her, I love her real and honestly
But my reaction now is of distance and modesty

How TV affects the brain

Well, TV seems to be a big culprit for so many of my issues. I feel it and see it so simply when I go from not watching a lot to watching some. The brain turns off, it’s incredible. The self goes away into this abyss of what you’re seeing. It’s tragic. It really is. It’s not healthy, pretty much no matter the content, maybe like 2 percent of the content out there is worth it. What a tragedy it has been in my life. Just time wasted. The brain is throbbing after. It overstimulates. Life seems less interesting, less potent. But it removes the will, it removes most drives. It smashes your feeling for decision making, for feeling empowered, for taking control. It is truly tragic. The winning move is to live life, not watch it through a screen or read it in a book. Time goes away.

The second thing is will and necessity. When you artificially simulate the needs of the mind/body etc, it stops desiring them because they have been “met”. Even though they really havent been met. To not watch porn you immediately feel that you have to grow and do anything it takes to be desirable, to get what you want and need. It becomes clear the path. But with porn, those needs are artificially met, its a lesser version. But feels substantial even though it is not, especially over time. Life is your clay and tv gives you the false sense that you are molding it.

Quotes

Death was made to fail

I’ve never defined myself by a win and i’ve never defined myself by a loss

I take a look at this as an opportunity, not a career

The great enemy of clear language is insincerity. When there is a gap between one’s real and one’s declared aims, one turns, as it were, instinctively to long words and exhausted idioms, like a cuttlefish squirting out ink.

Do and buy things and work in a way that will make your life easier.

It’s about peace in your heart.

Deprivation equals appretiation

You have to stay open; open minded and open to new things and to keep learning. Like a child at play, a beginners mind… I try and keep a beginners mind because that will always keep me open and learning new things and always staying humble to be able to just continue to improve.

Conformity is dead

Embrace the uncertainty of life

Frontiers are where you find them

Pressure is a choice

Your eyes have to be on where you want to hit, not on where you want to avoid punches

There’s only one way to get good at anything, surround yourself with bad mother fuckers who are doing exactly what you do and you force yourself to keep up and you all inspire each other.

Ride it till the wheels burn off the mother fucker

I have no fear of losing. My only fear is not following my instinct. My only fear is not playing my game. I fully understand Ryu is not the strongest character. If I wanted to win, I would play another character. I want to play my game. I want to express myself. And with Ryu, I have the opportunity to express myself.

“… and I am his son.  He sent me to Troy; and he used often to say to me, ‘let your motto be I lead.  Strive to be the best.”

The more you seek the uncomfortable, the more comfortable you get.

The moment seizes us

When you stop learning, then you should quit your career, you should stop doing it because you can’t be perfect, it’s a learning process that has to be ongoing all the time.

When i’m fighting in the ring and being hit, I can take it, because it’s normal for a fighter to be hurt.

And  what  remains  to  man?  The  liberating  feeling of  pervasive  disillusionment;  the  joy  of  honesty,  integrity,  and courage;  and  the  grace  of  humor,  love,  and  comprehensive tolerance:  in  one  word,  nobility.

Extreme ownership

The point of art, the reason I do art is to make life more beautiful

Getting better comes down to whether or not you can embrace the suck

Search your soul and figure out what you are missing.

You must resign yourself to the awkwardness of life, only when you find peace within yourself will you find true connection with others.

If you’re not enough without it, you’re never going to be enough with it.

Just see where it goes

Closed mouths dont get fed

You will be forgotten

Respect your opponent, don’t fear them.

No one owes you anything.

Dreams can come true, believe in yourself, believe in your heart, and once you get there don’t slow down.

Success isn’t owned, it is rented and rent is due every day.

Worrying is like praying for something you don’t want to happen

In the Iliad the brevity of life is no objection to the world but an incentive to relish its pleasures, to live with zest, and to die gloriously.  The shadow death casts does not stain the earth with a slanderous gloom; it is an invitation to joy and nobility.

Life won’t last

“Thats a shit load of victims..” PFFFhahahahahahahah

You don’t have to be embarrassed by your weaknesses

This is a man with optimism in his heart, belief in his soul, we are all children

There are no rules to this thing

Nothing lasts

An artist has an obligation to be enroute

If it aint new, its through

I had a goal.  Every day I asked myself, “What can I do? Not tomorrow, not in 10 years but right now.  What can I do today to be better? – GSP

I am a van gogh figure, ignore the criticism, move on with your style. The flaws don’t matter.

You can’t disrespect it, you can’t ever get cocky, you can’t ever think that for whatever reason that the learning process is over.

I feel myself as an artist, I like to do things because they’re beautiful, this intensity, this edge, this action, this love, i like to put my energy in life and intensity.

You show me a good loser and i’ll show you a loser.

There is no luck, you are either better or you are not

You cannot anticipate what’s going to happen, you have to allow yourself to be in a zero point, a neutral point, and be relaxed and connected with the variations.

Suicide and beauty, it’s there all the time.

In my opinion, whoever trains the hardest will win.

Facing your nerves

Nerves is anxiety in the moment. You have to challenge your nerves, you can. You have to maybe invision it a bit, maybe practice a bit, but you have to go for it, you have to overcome them. You have to meet those fears face to face. You cannot be lazy. You cannot be lazy in life. You are screwed if you do. You have to face your fears. You can do it, it’s going to be shit at first, but you can eventually get better. There are no shortcuts. Don’t be discouraged.

Just freaking do it.

Man, it really is the best way to go. You have to start with the people that you know. Keep asking, if it’s awkward then it’s awkward. Fuck it. You need to build that foundation of conversations, of knowing how to get to know people, not just one shot go’s, but in the long term. Call A, talk to her, get to know her. Spend that time. I mean fuck it right? If she doesn’t want to talk then it’s not going anywhere anyway. If she doesn’t want to make the time, then fuck it. Like, I don’t know. Making new friends? Do new things man, get your ass to those drawing classes. At the gym? I suppose it’s a bit different. It’s a bit of a different environment. Do the, take it easy thing. I think it helps, I think it breaks the ice in the long term. Other than that you don’t want to be interrupting people’s workouts. And talking while changing is lame. Bar life? Man I don’t want to be that lone guy at a bar. You can make friends with the bartender for sure. You definitely can. But it’s going to get expensive. You have to do this shit. You have to take control man. Otherwise it’s all going to get away from you. They aren’t asking, well I guess I have to. And if it burns bridges then my god, there isnt much else I can do. You have to learn. And maybe it will lead to new things. I need to get furniture for my apt. Fuck, this is not cool. Yeah, I am so afraid of bed bugs from a thrift store, god damn it.  I can’t afford new furniture. Ahh but if it is from a thrift store I will have to ship it myself. Hmm, I will have to look, see if I can find anything smallish that will do but not look completely trashy, ugh. I need to find stuff to do. No more of this bull shit. I need to plan and execute. I need to work, get to work building who I am and what I love to do. Fuck this. Fuck being lazy. Your life is now and only you can take the reins and make decisions about what you’re about, what you want, where you want to go, what you want to do. Fuck all this. Fuck passivity. Just fucking do it. Organize it.